7000 Miles Away From Happiness, My Japanese Princess. It all started with a friend request over facebook, i added her and from that very moment i was attracted to her which i didn't act on as i had felt it before but this time it was different. For the first few months we didn't really talk so much just a few comments to each other here and there until one day she commented my picture asking if it was really me, in truth when i saw the notification i was hoping she had wrote about my looks. Her English was not so good so when she wrote about finding English hard i thought this is my chance to talk with her more so i offered to help and that was when i felt my first connection with her, she said she loved talking to me and i said the feeling was mutual so from then on we seemed to talk every other day even to the point that i would wait up until 4am just to talk with her (my excuse was i couldn't sleep but in reality i could hardly keep my eyes open). We talked more and more until eventually it seemed like we only had facebook to talk to one another but we never really showed feelings for one another we just seemed to always say how much we loved talking together and inside i was dying to tell her that i had fallen for her in a way i had never felt for anyone though i had never even met her, the day of realisation came after about 8 or 9 months of continuously talking a girl wrote to me declaring her love and we talked a little but i said unfortunately i was in love with someone and she asked who i said it was a girl from Japan but i said i couldn't say because she was on my facebook so she would see and the relationship i had with her was the closest i thought i could get so i didn't want to ruin it. She had read through this conversation and sent me a private message asking who it was that i loved and i really didn't want to say but then i thought she would have had to click on this and read through the conversation so maybe she felt jealous that this girl had said it so then i decided it was time to risk what i had with her and tell her how i felt, when i told her she said she couldn't believe someone like me could love her..... she thought i was a bad boy and that she would never have a chance with someone like me and said she had loved me since the first day we talked and then my heart just exploded with joy. I couldn't believe we both had the same connection and that she had loved me for the same length of time, i was ecstatic at the thought of finally loving someone and she loved me too. The exact date was July 10th 2010 that we officially became a couple and announced it to our growing list of mutual friends and to the amazement of my friends that i knew personally, they couldn't believe that i was in a relationship with someone i had never met but nobody could take this feeling from me or understand it. We talked so much using Skype and sending letters with our perfumes on so we could get some personal feeling from one another, we always talked about the day we would meet and she was very disappointed because in March 2011 i said i would come to visit her but unfortunately i hadn't saved enough money to go because i was paid a very low wage so it was hard, then our time came in August we finally met and the second i saw her in the airport i felt so shy but also i knew i loved her. I had never flown before and i was scared because i was about to board a plane and fly for nearly 24 hours with stops in Dubai, i was alone but none of it mattered because i was going to see the girl i had loved for over a year. In person she was far more beautiful than any picture i had seen and she was so tall which is good because im 6ft4in and i was concerned she would look so small that i would be uncomfortable with it, i didnt even feel tired when i saw her though i had been awake for the last 32 hours with travelling and stop offs and we went to subway to get something to eat but i couldn't have anything i felt sick from nerves and wondering if she still loved me. Those questions were soon answered..... we got on a bus for an hours journey to her home and she grabbed me and in a very cute but scared, trembling voice she asked if she could hold my hand and i felt so good. She whispered to me she loved me and asked if i still loved her too to which i replied "I love you more now than i have ever loved you my princess" i could see the tear form in her eye but she wiped it away and at that moment i almost cried myself but i held it back. We held hands and took pictures of us together while on the bus and we soon arrived in her city, we then had a 20 minute wait for the next bus to take us too her house. We went and found a quiet area we could sit and thats when we had our first kiss, i could tell she was nervous her lips almost dried up the second we kissed and her body shook and then i got a feeling i had never experienced.... my heart surged and i felt almost like i would pass out, we kissed a few more times then boarded the bus to her home... we held hands again all the way to her home. Now the scariest part came.... i had to meet her mom! I was scared as we have 10 years age difference and i was sure she would hate me, i have tattoos which in Japan they are not very accepted so i did have worries she would not even make the effort to like me. She loved me after just one day and her cat (which is very unwelcoming to male visitors) loved me too which surprised her mom and my girlfriend, i was the only man her cat had ever liked and her mom said she can sense your good heart which made me so happy because i had been accepted immediately. The next 2 weeks of my life were the happiest ever, we visited so many beautiful sights but the one that sticks in my mind is her smile when we hugged and kissed.... i cried every night when i got in the shower because i knew i had to leave again but i didn't want her to see this i wanted her to enjoy every second though i was hurting. I had so much fun with her we went for a beautiful romantic meal and the view we had was amazing i wasn't rich but i was happy to spend every penny making her happy and i even met some of her friends and they loved that i was so tall and strong, everyone seemed to like me so i couldn't be happier... things are easier when you are accepted by everyone who matters so i felt there and then that this is the girl i want to spend the rest of my life with i had never felt so much love for someone before. Then the day came where i had to leave, her mom wanted to take us for our last meal together and then she would drive me too the airport with her. I cried as soon as i got in the car but she comforted me and even her mom looked sad but they told me to stop as we were going for a meal so they didnt want me to feel embarassed for crying in the restaurant, we finished the meal and while we waited outside for her mom to go to the toilet and pay the bill we sat and kissed in the moonlight. I got in the car knowing my next stop would be the airport and from that second i cried so much my body was shaking and i kept telling her "I cant go... i cant go!" I couldn't stop crying and i held her so tightly for the entire journey, i knew she was being strong for me i could see she was sad but she wouldn't show me until we arrived at the airport.... i checked in my luggage and we stood together for the last 15 minutes before i had to go through security (i was pushing it but i couldn't leave her) we shared a long hug and then took a picture of us sharing our last kiss together :'( she watched me as i walked away and she was crying so hard as was i :'( i turned and waved as i went down the escalator and my heart sank i knew i was going and couldn't hold her again for some time. I cried for about 3 hours on the plane until i literally ran out of tears i felt so sad... how could i be going away from the girl i loved so much!?!?!?! Now im back in England and we have had some arguments but still we pull through everything but currently im unemployed and i wanted to spend christmas with her but now that looks impossible and next year she is so busy that she isn't sure we can get time together because her uni is so important and i want her to have a good future so i understand this but my god i wish i could see her again :( All i can say is though....... i will always love her no matter what happens, she will always be my princess until the day i die and even in the next life i will still love her ♥